As you can tell by the title of this post, today did not go well. I was able to get Hiccup, my goat, an appointment to get some x-rays done. This morning, I fed him a bottle at 530 am. He was not showing any improvement from last night. By 11 am he was worse. I could tell that he was not getting the fluid and nutrition that he needed. He was starving to death. I still kept the appointment for the x-ray because I wanted to know what happened.
By the time he arrived at the hospital his body temperature had dropped and he was very sluggish. I knew that I would not be bringing him home. He was deteriorating quickly. The vet took 5 different x-rays. None of them provided any answers. Even without answers, I knew that putting him down was the right thing to do.
Life is complicated. Death is even more complicated. I hated making the decision, but I am very thankful that he is not suffering anymore. While they are with me, I love them, I do the best that I can to care for them and pray for wisdom. There comes a point where we have to hand it over to God and Nature. There are many factors that I just can not control.
Hiccup was a year and a half. He was full of life and had a wonderful personality. I hope and pray that I can learn from my time with him to better my care of my other goats. Rest in Peace my friend.